C for Chicknz

We started off as strangers, now we've came this far - together.

2008-09-04T09:08:41Z

I seriously never thought I'd come this far be it with my girlfriends or my real boyfriend. I mean it. I love you all. This is after seeing Joan's testimonial post. Hahah. Well this is sorta dramatic but I don't care either way. I have been with my girlfriends for almost 3 years and my dear boyfriend for a year plus.

I thought the 8/9 of us would eventually break up and seperate ouselves but no.. I think we can't live without each other's nonsense and I really like you all 'cos you guys are fun. Hahah, fucking les. and all. Irritating as hell and I like my dear deskmate, HuangZhaoBin. The one who's always telling me stories. I'm always disturbing her all the way throughout the school hours because I never EMO. Stupid Eugenia always irritating me. Remember her sugar syrup and Oprah Winfrey joke at CoffeeClub? Lol. I think I have been with her for 2 years alr. We got together like on the 13th, a bad friday. LOL. I always mix up JH and YH's name and they get so irritated because this is the third year alr! Aha, sorry. Yiting sunset, crazy girl that I luv and SarahTan, my new girlfriend like on 20082008!! Hahaha well to make it short and simple, I love you all and that will never change. No matter what they say about us, we will always be ourselves, yeah.

(INSERTS A VERY BIG HEART FOR THE NINE OF US!!!)

Okay boyfriend, hope you never get to see this. I'm bloody shy. It has been more than a year. I still remember that night you called me and listened to me crying. That night, we were friends only. The next day, we were more than friends. Sorry for what I have did in the past, refers to that year when we got together before. Thanks for being so nice and such an ass at times. Doing all you can just for me. Thanks for your very light N95 (He said that was to make up all the times when you pissed me off and all, heh) But I love you no matter what happens! We've been through so much and yes, you bothered to remember our anni. date 'cos it has been a year. We will go countdown together this year again okay! Hahahah and then I will kick your ass into NS alr :( Ah. Love you long time! 120807 yay!

Keith Chalet now. BAIBAI!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!

How inconsequential our lives are, my dear

2008-08-28T11:41:00Z

Hellu earthlings! I'm posting at lj again, just for now. Well I just come back on random days to update a bit. It's not as if anyone cares so yeah. I hate BeYourselfDay and I want hair extensions. Bloody hair is so ugly now. I am sad but I can't be bothered telling and no one can be bothered to listen. I hate being in Singapore because I can't do what I want in life but only do things that I dislike and do for the sake of doing it. I never seem to realise what life is about until ( ___ ). I never knew English was important, and I obviously think money comes easy 'cause I get it when I ask for it and so, ends up not saving any cash.

Well this is the very ugly and harsh reality we have to face. I have been through shit and so does everyone who knows how to think with their brains ('cause we all know everyone has brains but not all can think well enough for themselves) I think I think too much for my own good that caused my paranoia and I care too much about what people say that makes me do certain things and regret after. They say, "What's done is done, it cannot be undone". There is always someone inbetween you and me. I can't get over things easily, I can't forget things easily and I can't do what you ask me to within such a short time. I hate my life but the people around me made this world look many times better.

All the education fuck we go through. Are we even doing it for ourselves or are we doing it to get it done and over with? Well I'm doing it just so can get at least an Olvl certificate and by then, I hope my mum will send me over to Aust. for foundational studies. People like Cephas alr gave up and intends to pop over to a private school. Others are still trying - even though they have got lousy results. What am suppose to do? I don't know.

I am good at nothing but spending cash. I can't earn a living in Sg with my passion. I don't see myself going to Uni in the future. I feel like dying. Everyone's feeling suicidal. I hate this.
Everyone dies eventually. I wanna know when I die and where I die. I wanna live my life like the way I want it to be and not being manipulated by anyone or anything. I should fake my own death like what Js tells me to.

Good night everyone. Have a nice BeYourselfDay tomorrow, (faggy)NASians.

YOUR HEART IS AN EMPTY ROOM
RIGHT NOW, I'M LETTING MY HEART SINK TILL IT DIES.
BITCH :(

Lyvia HELPS!

2008-06-21T17:02:32Z

Back to breakdown-inscreamo.blogspot

lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
lyvia.
the superest

Carolyn says i can mess around! WHOO! AH LALALALA!
MY BDAY'S COMING!
CAROLYN LOVES LYVIA!!
Chinese is TOILETBOWL ASS ASS ASS

You can't escape reality

2008-06-21T10:48:57Z

At the beginning-Richard Marx & Donna Lewis

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

--

Heard this song at the graduation party,at a vbcamp if I haven't remember wrongly,for our seniors one or two years ago. Nice video,nice party for 'em too. Glad that I still manage to see them play at matches.
This year would be for my beloved team mates' Bel turned up for the Bbq and I'm sure as hell that I really missed her like hell. Pray hard that our poh will pass her Nlvl and stay with us till next year(package includes getting into Ny too haha)

Stay home Saturday today. Lazy to go for coffee even though I suggested it to Eug. I'm gettin' cupcakes for my baby from c-cup.biz!!! Yeah man gonna get a few for myself. I reckon they will taste great. 'Cos they look great?
Hahah. School starts on monday(fk!!!) Plus training of 'cos-.- It's time to rush through my holiday homework. Math is sucha turn off. I wanna do SS but... I guess I'll spend all of my time next week doing it. I mustmustmust do all my homework from now onwards and pass all my tests and do olvls next year for math and cheena.
Junior's matches coming up on this thursday just hope they'll get into top 4 at least,it wouldn't look so bad then. I miss Jh and all!! Haven't seen her for quite some time. Not forgetting,I'm quitting sakura soon(But I want my uniform money back!! it's freakin' 50bucks and it's like SHIT.) I will never ever work there again. Sucks big time and shows how ugly(not superficial la!) many Singaporeans are.

Piano tomorrow :( I so wanna quit. K shit,I'm gone. I shouldn't have gone back given my hectic schedules. Irritating as it can be and oh, I'm lookin' forward to youth cup! Hoping for a new jersey for youth cup of 'cos. I need to get a diary gr. I keep forgetting. I have quite a few things to get and I'm gonna get that very gay flower or w/e tongue stud which me and Lyvia saw aha. Get that rubberthingy that you wear on your neck for like 52 bucks. Seriously wonder if I should get it. Prolly a waste of money though. Okay Idk.

Baibai. I feel sad now. Not happy anymore.
:(

WHO WANTS TO BUY CUPCAKES CALL ME KAY!
Then we share the order tgr :) Hee. Go c-cup.biz!

Love y'all!

I ain't weak but I ain't strong either

2008-06-20T14:40:16Z

Bbq ytd was alright. Tired as hell home at 1.30am,training today,boring and I'm tired.
I miss my boyfriend. Alot. Haven't seen him in what,5.5 months. Seeing him in 9 days! YAY.
But I'm pretty sad for now. Was bloody pissed on the court just now but everything turns out alright after.
See,playing in a match really crash everybody's mood(when small kids cheer for nothing,making a big fuss over 1 point as if they've never won in their life before. C'mon suckers,you can do better than that. You guys are nearing Bgirls and what,you can't even whack balls properly to own us but only do shit like freeball and stuff. That's very sad)
K but I hope for the best for my dear Cgirls even though...But yeah. Except for F*,I have nothing to say but goodluck,in a very rude manner. Oops. K bai. Dad's bring me out for supper and I've to remove my stud for now,F!

To my dear friends,
I really hope you guys would understand for that 2weeks when J comes back and yeah. I don't want you guys to say like I neglect you all and yeah. I only have that 2weeks and if you guys can't understand that then I'm sorry. At the end of everything, I STILL LOVE YOU ALL :) Like seriously.

Luv all.
Goodnight bf,
Goodnight mates,
Goodnight Eug darling and I hope you're feeling better :) REALLY LAH

I thought I could be somebody

2008-06-19T04:15:47Z

BBQ in 3hrs time. Meeting Jw and Bel first :) Gonna get my treat and get my bloody diary for my shit or maybe not. See y'all when I'm back!

I love you boyfriend :) I miss you too! 10 days more,hold on.
J,glad that you've thought about everything ytd. Supersub! Love.
Darling E,don't be sad anymore kay. Sun comes out after rain :D

Do I? Really?

2008-06-17T10:01:34Z

People are telling me I sound very 'bleh' nowadays. I mean really? I just don't feel the same as before. Not even that feeling with my team mates. I guess that's why Phebe don't really mean to be that way in the past,it's just that it's sickening that she've to be in that position. If I ever change,to someone like shit and acts like some fucking cunt,please tell me? I mean I don't know. I just felt like bullshit for all this while. And I'm feeling veryvery tired too. Down with flu and abit of sore throat. The two kids today nearly killed me with their cries. I've never tried two kids crying together at the same time. AH!

I just hope YOU will be okay after hearing what Phebe told you about the whole thing. I just don't know how to tell you things like 'cos we've been together for so long and I know the truth would hurt but the whole team wants you to play. It's better off letting that fat banana play. I mean seriously. It hurts to see him scolding you ytd. It hurts even more when you cry and I can't do anything. I mean all these words I typed down over here and I really hope you'll be better. You'll be a better subset than D* :D
Love.

I've learnt so much from all this things that happened. I'll be stronger than ever.
Thanks bf,Be and Yc.

I use heavy duty batteries,yo

2008-06-14T05:55:43Z

I have freaking work today. Rah. I'm getting my pay and it'll obviously be less than TEN bucks. Wtfabc. I was tooooooo tired to go for junior's training today. Piano tmr,sickening. See me back at night and telling you I'm half alive. I love y'all. I love Js and I love Eug :) Happy now eug? ;D OH,Eug never dares to touch Elodie she claims that Elodie is too small for her and she have some phobia. Who ask her eat until so big and drop her brother when he was young. Idiot. Hahahha.

2 in the morning

2008-06-12T18:21:07Z

Firstly,happy tenth baby :) Long way uh,but we still got a long way! Hahah.

Anyway,I've spent my 2 days with shit,that's where my passion brought me to. Like try my position now. Suck big time. I've to do shit I don't like but I've to 'cause that responsibility is mine. I only can rant my shit of the day to be and my bf. Like who else would sit and listen to me. Okay.. Shall stop all this. Posting it up here is pointless.
But conclusion,this few days are shit and they suck balls,hard.

Went down to NY to settle junior's shit got there at 12.30 left at 6,went to Tm for sakae with be,wilson,lyv and jerline. Good time and good food hahah I finally reunite with my toufus(luv) Phebe's treat to HaagenDazs and yeah home after.

I have LOTS of crap to finish tmr,I feel like urgh. Bf is right,I need a diary thing so I can write 'em all down. PDA's a good choice but haha -looks at dad- Gonna leave the house at 11 tmr and be back by 10 at night. Good luck to me. I'm feeling so worn out alr. My dumb left shoulder is giving problems again.

I dunno why,people just think that they don't play well like Ferd was talkin' to be about like he can't set well. Like some people maybe just think too highly of themselves. I ain't talkin' about anyone but just so you know human are sluts.

I want Yoguru yoghurt!!!!!! I need to go all the way to Kallang just to have one. Gr.

GOODNIGHT JS LOVE :D
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

P.S Eug is suppose to call me like at 2. Stupid dog ass Weijie. Burn.
P.S(x2) I'M BAOBEI(PAU LAH)

Hello and not our last goodbye

2008-06-10T06:20:02Z

First part of training sucked big time. Our dear coach made us did the runrun thing and made your mother I puked like F. Call me weak or whatever,you can go try that shit on your own. Couple of hours of match after,bathed,Hougang Sports hall for match. But nothing much though. Might be going down later but movie with Eug and all for Kungfu panda. Bloody Pms came today,!!! and I haven't had my breakfast..

See y'all laterrrz! LURVE.

20 days till I get to see you for 2 weeks. It's better off than nothin' :)
Love ya!

What the fluck

2008-06-08T09:21:37Z

I DISLIKE. URGH.
I FEEL SO UNBALANCED STILL AFTER SO MANY MONTHS
I WISH I COULD TELL MYSELF I AIN'T PETTY WITHOUT FEELIN' GUILTY
BUT I DOUBT I CAN SO I SHOULD JUST SHUT UP AND ADMIT THAT I'M SMALL-MINDED

THE ART FEST THING HAS PISSED ME OFF. IT'S AS IRRITATING AS FUCK AND IT'S NOT AS IF IT'S SOME GREAT SHIT NOT LIKE SGP FAGGOTS CAN TRUELY APPRECIATE IT THEY'RE JUST BULLSHITTING AND GO GET A LIFE IDIOTS DO IT IN TOWN NOT PASIRRIS TOWN 'COS WE HAVE ALL TEH UNCLEAUNTIES HERE YO

I WOULD STILL LIKE TO THINK THAT M(S) ARE THE WORST IDIOTS LIKE YOU CAN CALL THEM A DOLT LIKE THOSE WHO POSED PICS OUTSIDE COFFEECLUB WHEN THEY'VE GOT THE FLYFLYTHING ATTACKING THEM. EW. OKAY THEY'LL JUST SAY I DON'T KNOW ART K FINE.

BYE. I FEEL SO. URGH. MY DAY'S CRUSHED.

Stickykeys,gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

2008-06-08T07:55:34Z

p>"-Posts with a picture taken on my birthday, at my chalet-
Yiting started to clip her hair, just because we say she look chio when she clip.

Carolyn loves to talk to cury alot and neglect me. (what's this suppose to mean-.-)
Zhaobin always think she is cute, just because people say she cute! Hor, zb.
Joan like to guai lan people alot and we get used to it already.
Sheryl loves to eat alot alot alot and alot.
Yinghui always give her whatever attitude to us.
Jinghui loves to spend her money and keep complaining no money-.-
I always give final fanstacy to them, hahah! "

I have no idea what Eugenia is on about -points to the last sentence- Doesn't make sense seriously. Try harder the next time hahahah. Most of 'em are true and some are not(and not really).
Niece and nephew just left. I don't mind giving birth if my kids are like them. HougangSportsHall later for U-19 matches. Hope today's wouldn't be boring. AND THANKS SHERYL FOR UPLOADING MY PICS (LUV) I FELL ASLEEP WATCHING TV AFTER SHITTING.

HERE ARE MY CLOUD PICS! YAYYYAYY!!!

Not thaat nice but yeah.. I really like them though =x Luv y'all! :D And they should look better in friendster. :D

Lexitron

2008-06-07T16:20:37Z

What an addictive game Lexitron is. Played it before training,after training and it stayed on my mind for quite sometime. I hate short training. It's the time to train like mad dogs but our coach ain't feelin' like it. Well what are we gonna do with 9 pathetic girls..

Many people say things but they themselves don't do it. I don't know why human are like that. Thank god,we should -mark the scarsm. Some fucking cunts can behave like the mostmostmost(x100) dunce idiots and not realising themself acting like one and I don't know what sgp guys think. Sickening faggots. URGH.

Piano tmr,drag myself there again. I really hate going over,see my teacher(cunt no.2) but I like seeing the piano :D!
Breakfast with dad(I'd rather be with my boyfriend,no,dad has less time with me) and I don't know. I wanna go watch under19 matches.

No matter what happens,
Even if the gates of hell open
And we're left stranded out in the ocean
I'll love you even with my feelings unspoken
Even as the whole world is left broken
Ands its foundations torn asunder
Our love will rise with the thunder

Bf did this. Hahah,awesome. Like yeah man,our love will rise with the thunder.
I don't even remember posting it anywhere 2 years ago. Hahah. I sorta am jealous that bf knows how to do this and my English suck big time pls. Okay ain't suprising. No wonder LeeChaiNoi always ask me improve. Gr okay admit the fact Carolyn.

Okay nightz people. I still dislike the number 4,can't seem to find love in that number. Tsk.

P.S EUGENIA IS LAME AT HER LJ AGAIN.
WHAT CAROLYN LIKE TO TALK TO CURY AND NEGLECT ME. STUPID IDIOT.
MANY THINKS THAT WE BOTH ARE LESBIANS AND ARE TGR. WTFABC.

countingchicknz @ 2008-06-06T12:37:00

2008-06-06T04:39:15Z

Back @ Breakdown-inscreamo.blogpspot for the time being.

Singaporeans got nothing better to do I swear

2008-06-05T09:54:32Z

The thing that's near the Mrt is irritating me. The Djs there a fucktards and !! They were still at it last night when it's already 10+pm and WE NEED THE SLEEP IDIOTS! RAH.

I'm damn sian already. I stoned for 5 hours after I woke up and I'm still alive people. I need holiday,I need shopping,I need more training,I need to lose weight(Eh no,I gave up-errr,sorta) I NEED TO SLEEP MY DAYS AWAY other than those when I have trg or work.

IMGOINGOFFTOCURSEIHATETHISANDIFEELSOBADASINFUCKEDUPKIND.ANOTHERNOPRODUCTDAYGONE.ISOWONDER WHATAMIGOINGTOTALKTOBFABOUTANDILOVEEVERYONEHEEE.

Is this the sad season for everyone? People who I know or related to are sad.
Irrelevant: .... and this is why I say sg guys are idiots and they know shit but they do know how to be fuckers.
I just hope I won't be the next. 'COS THIS IS GONNA LAST. Sian..

Eugenia posts all her meowmeow on her blog everytime,I realise.

NANANN PLAYERS,PLS MAIL ME:
SIZE,NUMBER(FOR FRONT&BACK),NAME.
AND AH PLS AH,ALL ON JERSEY NOT ON PAPER SO THINK PROPERLY AND MAIL ME SOON IF YOU GUYS WANT YOUR JERSEY SOON ;)
OHOH,WHOEVER WANT NEW TIGHTS MAIL ME PLS :D
THNKS AND LOVE Y'ALL!

ownself buy tights expensive ah. Lol,I want that Mizuno tights nyplayers have :( $90 (SIAN 1/2)
see,everything is cash. send me to hell man. EH NO KIDDING.

Shen's group!

2008-06-05T05:22:41Z

I gave the name of Shen's group to all the followers of Coach. Hahaha. K not funny. It sudden popped out when we
were choosing jersey for our new combine team -NanAnn(NgeeAnn+Nanyang) 'Coswe didn't know what to print. So I'm like Shen's group and I reckon all the schools under Coach should do that. Hahha,maybe not. It's ugly like f. Uncle Steven Kang will sponsor us if we want to play for under19 next year! Hahah. We gotta love him. No wait,his jerseys I mean! But yeah. Jurong Alumni won. I so wanted to play please,tsk. #3 from Jurong is my idol I tell you,ever first female idol okay. Wahlau,LOVE MAN.

1.I've yet to email UncleSteven containing all the jersey sizes and all.
2.A backguard will cost about $70 bucks?! (Sian 1/2)
3.For a moment back there I thought Ferd was gonna spon us with the kneepads,he told us to steal from the store at the back of the hall.
4.I haven't had breakfast yet.
5.I need shopping. Mum's not auto enough.
6.I'm getting my Prada which means I've to change it with my new LV :(
7.I'm looking forward to my juniors matches :) Go juniors!
8.I'm looking forward to the day when my baby's coming over :D
9.CottonOn is always a better choice? I shall prove to myself when I get one from parkway.

HI BF I LOVE YOU! ;D
HI EUG&ZB I LOVE YOU!
Both idiots are such idiots esp eug canz. Always irritating.

Why she had to go,I don't know she wouldn't say.

2008-06-03T07:30:56Z

1.I can't be bothered typing out everything again. I always click on smth and everypart of my post is gone,and there is no such thing as autosave on lj. If there is,educate me pls.

2.Smth bad happen to one of my relative. It's sad x2. I just hope my aunty is okay. Sigh.. I wouldn't be strong enough to handle 2 deaths in one year. Oh well. Life is stupid-.-

3.I hate irritating kids. Perhaps my sister is right,I should not give birth to any or I might just kill them all one day. I just don't have so much patience with kids who think with their butts.

4.I just remember we have such thing called 'holiday assignments' Argh!

5.WHERE THE F IS THAT FAGGOTTTT?!!?!??!?

6.Mr Loo just called telling me that NgeeAnn's MediaClub or smth is going over to Ny to interview the Vballers.
He asked stupid questions-.- I asked in a kidding manner if he wanna film me,la. He was like,yeah of course,you so pretty,why not. Stupid idiot. What kind of teacher is this-.-

7.I just realise I have all the Vb teacher in charge number now. Hahahha. I was laughing inside when I realise.
The answer is pretty ovbious like why I suddenly had all of the teacherincharge's number. I long for Phebe to be back(insertheart)

This is what I've been using to deal with my f-uped ankle,for months. Explains why it looks like crap now.
Any sponsors for a new one? :) (For the whole team,also can,lagi best :D)

Xueer:Why carolyn like not looking here?
Me:'Cos I purposely one what! (Laughs)

Forever like a kid,our dear pok.

I had difficulty going onto that thing pls. Thanks to Sj and Xe hahah. Realised that I was the only one with all my shit on still.

My duijiao(Somehow meaning my opposite,means we're both open spikes!)

I so did not bother hanging myself upside down,lol.
This...

I so hope my people remember this! Ahahaha. Lovely I tell ya. Good old days.
Alcohol,Mooncake,Juice,Fag,lovely companions! Hahah. Oh well. Do it again this year. Heh,maybe not? =x But not to forget the mooncakes from Starbucks is good. Hahah.

I SHALL SHOW MY CLOUD PICS SOON ;D Sheryl not only has to learn to pick up every call people make -to her and also to do things quickly. She haven't sent me those pics. I bet she did not even bother sending them last night can.
Hahahha,know why? CAUSE WE'RE ALL LIKE THAT. DRAG AND DRAG AND DRAGGGGGG. That's how our group people work. Never early too. Tsssk.

The past doesn't influence the future?

2008-06-02T03:44:05Z

I logged in as 'CuntingChicknz' and obviously I can't. I'm leaving my training in an hour's time. Which reminds me that I have to buy a backguard or w/e guard you use to protect your back? Sounds funny to me lol but I need one. My back is the next part I'm gonnna screw up plx. Which means more $_$! SCREW SAKURA.

I've never tried making breakfast for someone before. Hahah. Idk. 'Cause yang reminded me about all this. She always bring food from home for us as breakfast. Awesome canz. ChangiVillage for dinner last night with the usuals,again. Hahah,I don't have friends. Dinner was great. Filled our tummy full like fk. Lol.

Anyway,I will get off now. Need to meditate(for training :D) But yeah.
Hi bf, I LOVE YOU :D (so gay-.-)

countingchicknz @ 2008-06-01T15:07:00

2008-06-01T07:26:48Z

MY ENTRY IS GONE AGAIN!!! K NEVERMIND.

1. CoffeeClub with da group last night. Great time.
2. Mahjonging @ J's later.
3. I feel like a lonely girl 'cos I haven't seen my bf for almost half a year already.
4. I need to upload all my fucking pictures but this bluetooth shit ain't workin'. Bitch.
5. I bought 2 new bra!! (excited)
6. I regret not going Indonesia! Bloody Cephas was long gone on a holiday to some place to see angmoh babes.

7. KILL ME NOW FUCK.

Guan Yin Ma pls po pi this r/s will work out and I get to marry J hahahahaha.
No I serious bodoh! Then we have a fairytale like wedding hahah k fuck no. I was just kidding.
Po pi those who kena the cyclone and earthquake k. So sad canz they all. Tssk.

K bye. Sad sia now.

Rain and thunder

2008-05-31T08:33:58Z

I mend shit that are broken and only if it means something to me. Everyone in this goddamn world assume and make everything impossible. So,I,obviously know even I use my big ass to think. (I said this might be a misunderstanding,duh.) I don't clear shit up unless it's something like what Eileen did. You and me never had a quarrel for long,so what the fuck is this. We ain't that petty to each other but some small little things does matter.
I know I seldom say this,but after everything I still love you. (Might not really matter) but yeah. How much my team mates mean to me.

For your infomation,people who were at training,most of them suddenly became like Lyvia.
This is what happen when we talk to Lyv and we get irritated:

Joan: -(Joan says something)-
Lyv in court: Sorry?
Me and Joan: ARGHHHH!!!!!!
(with Xe laughing at the side)

...Last night was Mq's turn. Mr Tham made us laugh so hard and I had stomach cramp halfway.

Last:
Let it go and come back in your heart.
(^probably what I always do)

Beat it,just beat it.

2008-05-30T16:50:51Z

Finally,the song I've been looking for.

Can't hold on-Melee,

Someone cries and it washes the street with tears
But when they are mine, they collect in my head for years
Rain or shine, still I'm standing on all I said
'Cause it's in my soul, carry on when the feeling's dead

But if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through

Someone dies late at night and I never know
And even if I did, so afraid of the face I'd show
I feel trapped and enslaved to this dark contrast
Need a feeling now, give me something that's going to last
...
Life is so sick. I post so much melancholic things. But this is my life,pretty much filled up with all that saddd thingz.
Nothing really makes me happy. Even if there is,it's temporary. I started tonight happyily,well yeah sorta. Ended it saddingly. Moral of the story about life that I've concluded -Life is such a STUPID game that it ain't fun anymore. 'Cos you ain't the one who set all the fuckin' rules and call the shot,things ain't the way you want it to be 'cos this way,this stupid game is more exciting this way. God controls everything and we're just the players -who never stop and think.

Fine,I leave it that way. It's bullshit and this game suck big time. I meant BIGBIG time. I think I'm reaching my goal in NgeeAnn's Vb team. My goal since SecOne when I saw Chenbunny and Bigbird playing at that time. I'm contented with myself. I look at you,I wanna encourage you. I didn't. Why? 'Cos I'm afraid you'll take it that I'm showing off or what. I stick out my fat ass hand,you ignore it. I'll never do it again,not to you at least. You have no idea how pissed I am. I just feel like shit when my team mates feel shit but the least I can do is encourage. But you don't appreciate. But there's still others who appreciate. We all started out like some crap ass team. Might be a misunderstanding. Well yeah this is how I feel. I'm so fking afraid tongues will start shakin' and say that I'm arrogant or smth(well since you say that I'm better than you-know-who)
Anyhows,I still love my team. I'm starting to bond a lil with my juniors which is a very good thing.
Dunman? We're on better terms now. At least they ain't the hypocrites they used to be. I'm glad. Very.
Saw Weiyu's blog. That's my evidence? Hahah. Clara got selected for the Yog. Awesome.

Last thing tonight,even if our Cgirls do not emerge as National Champs this year. We will own the National Champs for next year and the year after for sure. Mr Adrian Lim,please show some support if you want this to happen. (LIKE WHERE THE FK IS OUR ANKLE GUARDS MAN.) (Oh no wait Coach doesn't want them) F,means I've to spend another $30(ankleguards)+$15(for my stinkin' kneepads)=$45. SOMEONE SPONSOR ME PLS(HAHA,WAIT LONGLONG). Wtf :( Gonna use my pay to pay for it which is gonna be less than $100! I'm gonna quit soon. My job stinks big time. Just like most of the people there. No offence seriously but some malays are such dumbfucks. (Am I gonna get sued? =x) Okay sorry..

P.S I found 2 new love
1,Rollerblading
2,taking pictures of clouds(well for quite sometime)

P.S(2) I love you regardless,baby.

P.S(3) I miss my 1stBgirlsTeam :( (Seeing how cgirls played among themselves today..)

P.S(4) I love my mates and group!

P.S(5) I need to sleep. The tears I cried made me sleepy.

The time of my life

2008-05-30T03:39:31Z

Took so long to load Joan's lj,bloody irritating me. Gonna go early training. I'm going nutx staying home doing nothing except for sitting infront of this comp. Bf ain't sms-ing me bff ain't sms-ing me. Oh f,I need to make time for my dearest PTS,she has been waiting since forever man. I never told her when to meet up =x shiat. The last time I met her was at Starbucks with Cornelius. Hahah,that was great.

I realise how things come and go so quickly. Some things can happen at the beginning of the month and go away after a few days or weeks. This is what I call,hmm,not tragedy but agony of losing something. Olvl is sucha bitch. But this is Sg for you -and me. Well yeah.

Trainingtrainingtraining. I miss all the fun we had tgr as a team. I miss... sigh. That stupid chongmin is always counting down to how many more days she would graduate from the team,like since last year. Finished the last match,most of us were crying. You'll never know the pain I had inside me. As you can see how much I love my team,I keep harping on the same damn thing but this never get off my mind before. Sigh. .

Youth Cup during the Hols last yr :D

EastZones

Okay enough hahaha. I found some pictures of my group taken at PRP,lantern festival! Ahaa.
"60 more miserable days save me"
I said that^ in my blogspot on may 1st and now it's may 30th and hahahaha
31 more okay-okay days
HAHAHAHA okay washout siolz.

Vulnerable human souls.such a pity we ain't that strong.

2008-05-29T05:43:13Z

(Bloody hell. Post disappeared and I've to type a new one. Stupid.)
But think again,so what if we were. I seriously have to stop worrying so much. Kills me you know. I'm too lazy to say anything but it's the same thing. Argh.

I am seriously falling in love with Jean,hahahaha. So gay I tell ya. NgeeAnn+NYJC (NanAnn,lol) is the best combination man. Ytd was our second time playing as a team together. We love. I wanna wanna go watch U19 matches. NgeeAnn's alumni team ain't playing this year,tsktsktsk. Oh well.

I'M BLOODY BORED. ASS STUCKED AT MP'S HOUSE. ARGH. I WANNA GO FLY KITE WITH MY LOVELY TEAMMATES :(
I need to shop. It's the time of the yearrrrrrr (Cheapskate-.-) Aha. I need to buy new bra. Hohoho.

baibai. game time.

When we all still think that we're young...

2008-05-28T04:49:33Z

Another baby came into this world! Aha,it's Eug's baby sis I'm talkin' about!
She sms-ed me in the morning telling me about her sis is out from her mum's fairy big tummy and weighing 7.2pounds. Felt happy for her and a tad bit jealous 'cos I no baby sis or bro whaaatt! But if I got baby bro then things would be different. 'Cos our darling Eug wants a baby bro. Hehhhh.
Eug and I were talking about it and when her sis turns 15(which is another 15 long yearrrr),we would be 30 by then and will be telling her sister about our stories when we're at her age. It's so funny and sad -we're growing old.
Oh wellz. Life's like that. We live to die one day,so sad but true. If we all lived till very old then I can only use one word to describe -EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Thousand year old monsters can.

Okay training in a few hours time. I'm craving for Ikea's meatball but I'm gonna have chickenrice -,-
Nevermind,I like :)
And oh,how I miss those conversations when you and me sat in Ikea's cafeteria or w/e. AWWWWWWWW.
Nevermind. Still got 3+30=33 days left. Satays at ny,gogogo!

countingchicknz @ 2008-05-27T12:01:00

2008-05-27T04:34:21Z

Combined with 3 of the Ny players yesterday,won all 6 sets,am contented. I think I have a crush on Jean ahaaaa.
She's so woo~! Hahah. Left our shoes in Ny so we've to go and collect it(blah...). Bought food and cabbed down to Yuying for trg.

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To E. :
Hi to you. It's not that I don't wanna forgive but I've learnt my lesson. The very first time something like this happened.
We treated you guys nicely and all but you guys bitched about us behind our backs causing things to turn out this way now. I just wanna tell you,if you wanna do things,think before you do it. Don't regret after if you're gonna do it. NgeeAnn and Dunman Volleyball can't 'click'. I would appreciate it if you guys just give coach a little more respect and a bit to your dear team mates(I meant you guys giving each other respect). Not giving coach a 'blah' face when you guys can't do things right. I dislike you guys 'cos all of you give me a feeling saying that you guys are good. So what? It's just the ending of Cgirls,wait till you reach Bgirls. Don't have to be overconfident 'cos Dunman have the height. Next time,you guys ain't happy,just come up to us. Don't let us waste our time over such thing again. See you at training :)
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I really dislike what you said to me in all those textmsges. But yeah. People will never really understand you and I assume that's why humans will never find a true soulmate. People nowadays are too busy with shitz to bother about you,unless you die. They cry for that very moment and forget you in a few weeks compared to your few years r/s -it's bullshit. They always say 'appreciate those people around you' but how many really does that? Everybody just want someone to listen to their shit and how many would be willing to listen to people for hours and hours?

Ah F I shall stop if not,it's never ending. I rly hate it when people don't understand why you've to do this or that and blah at you. Sigh. Okay bye. F.
My fking mum is !!!! again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL!!
We gave her a stupid surprise ytd,hahahah.