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I seriously never thought I'd come this far be it with my girlfriends or my real boyfriend. I mean it. I love you all. This is after seeing Joan's testimonial post. Hahah. Well this is sorta dramatic but I don't care either way. I have been with my girlfriends for almost 3 years and my dear boyfriend for a year plus.

I thought the 8/9 of us would eventually break up and seperate ouselves but no.. I think we can't live without each other's nonsense and I really like you all 'cos you guys are fun. Hahah, fucking les. and all. Irritating as hell and I like my dear deskmate, HuangZhaoBin. The one who's always telling me stories. I'm always disturbing her all the way throughout the school hours because I never EMO. Stupid Eugenia always irritating me. Remember her sugar syrup and Oprah Winfrey joke at CoffeeClub? Lol. I think I have been with her for 2 years alr. We got together like on the 13th, a bad friday. LOL. I always mix up JH and YH's name and they get so irritated because this is the third year alr! Aha, sorry. Yiting sunset, crazy girl that I luv and SarahTan, my new girlfriend like on 20082008!! Hahaha well to make it short and simple, I love you all and that will never change. No matter what they say about us, we will always be ourselves, yeah.

(INSERTS A VERY BIG HEART FOR THE NINE OF US!!!)

Okay boyfriend, hope you never get to see this. I'm bloody shy. It has been more than a year. I still remember that night you called me and listened to me crying. That night, we were friends only. The next day, we were more than friends. Sorry for what I have did in the past, refers to that year when we got together before. Thanks for being so nice and such an ass at times. Doing all you can just for me. Thanks for your very light N95 (He said that was to make up all the times when you pissed me off and all, heh) But I love you no matter what happens! We've been through so much and yes, you bothered to remember our anni. date 'cos it has been a year. We will go countdown together this year again okay! Hahahah and then I will kick your ass into NS alr :(  Ah. Love you long time! 120807 yay!

Keith Chalet now. BAIBAI!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!

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Hellu earthlings! I'm posting at lj again, just for now. Well I just come back on random days to update a bit. It's not as if anyone cares so yeah. I hate BeYourselfDay and I want hair extensions. Bloody hair is so ugly now. I am sad but I can't be bothered telling and no one can be bothered to listen. I hate being in Singapore because I can't do what I want in life but only do things that I dislike and do for the sake of doing it. I never seem to realise what life is about until ( ___ ). I never knew English was important, and I obviously think money comes easy 'cause I get it when I ask for it and so, ends up not saving any cash. 

Well this is the very ugly and harsh reality we have to face. I have been through shit and so does everyone who knows how to think with their brains ('cause we all know everyone has brains but not all can think well enough for themselves) I think I think too much for my own good that caused my paranoia and I care too much about what people say that makes me do certain things and regret after. They say, "What's done is done, it cannot be undone". There is always someone inbetween you and me. I can't get over things easily, I can't forget things easily and I can't do what you ask me to within such a short time. I hate my life but the people around me made this world look many times better. 

All the education fuck we go through. Are we even doing it for ourselves or are we doing it to get it done and over with? Well I'm doing it just so can get at least an Olvl certificate and by then, I hope my mum will send me over to Aust. for foundational studies. People like Cephas alr gave up and intends to pop over to a private school. Others are still trying - even though they have got lousy results. What am suppose to do? I don't know.

I am good at nothing but spending cash. I can't earn a living in Sg with my passion. I don't see myself going to Uni in the future. I feel like dying. Everyone's feeling suicidal. I hate this. 
Everyone dies eventually. I wanna know when I die and where I die. I wanna live my life like the way I want it to be and not being manipulated by anyone or anything. I should fake my own death like what Js tells me to. 

Good night everyone. Have a nice BeYourselfDay tomorrow, (faggy)NASians.

YOUR HEART IS AN EMPTY ROOM
RIGHT NOW, I'M LETTING MY HEART SINK TILL IT DIES.
BITCH :(

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At the beginning-Richard Marx & Donna Lewis

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

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Heard this song at the graduation party,at a vbcamp if I haven't remember wrongly,for our seniors one or two years ago. Nice video,nice party for 'em too. Glad that I still manage to see them play at matches. 
This year would be for my beloved team mates' Bel turned up for the Bbq and I'm sure as hell that I really missed her like hell. Pray hard that our poh will pass her Nlvl and stay with us till next year(package includes getting into Ny too haha)

Stay home Saturday today. Lazy to go for coffee even though I suggested it to Eug. I'm gettin' cupcakes for my baby from c-cup.biz!!! Yeah man gonna get a few for myself. I reckon they will taste great. 'Cos they look great? 
Hahah. School starts on monday(fk!!!) Plus training of 'cos-.- It's time to rush through my holiday homework. Math is sucha turn off. I wanna do SS but... I guess I'll spend all of my time next week doing it. I mustmustmust do all my homework from now onwards and pass all my tests and do olvls next year for math and cheena.
Junior's matches coming up on this thursday just hope they'll get into top 4 at least,it wouldn't look so bad then. I miss Jh and all!! Haven't seen her for quite some time. Not forgetting,I'm quitting sakura soon(But I want my uniform money back!! it's freakin' 50bucks and it's like SHIT.) I will never ever work there again. Sucks big time and shows how ugly(not superficial la!) many Singaporeans are. 

Piano tomorrow :( I so wanna quit. K shit,I'm gone. I shouldn't have gone back given my hectic schedules. Irritating as it can be and oh, I'm lookin' forward to youth cup! Hoping for a new jersey for youth cup of 'cos. I need to get a diary gr. I keep forgetting. I have quite a few things to get and I'm gonna get that very gay flower or w/e tongue stud which me and Lyvia saw aha. Get that rubberthingy that you wear on your neck for like 52 bucks. Seriously wonder if I should get it. Prolly a waste of money though. Okay Idk.

Baibai. I feel sad now. Not happy anymore. 
:( 

WHO WANTS TO BUY CUPCAKES CALL ME KAY! 
Then we share the order tgr :) Hee. Go c-cup.biz! 

Love y'all!

Firstly,happy tenth baby :) Long way uh,but we still got a long way! Hahah.

Anyway,I've spent my 2 days with shit,that's where my passion brought me to. Like try my position now. Suck big time. I've to do shit I don't like but I've to 'cause that responsibility is mine. I only can rant my shit of the day to be and my bf. Like who else would sit and listen to me. Okay.. Shall stop all this. Posting it up here is pointless.
But conclusion,this few days are shit and they suck balls,hard. 

Went down to NY to settle junior's shit got there at 12.30 left at 6,went to Tm for sakae with be,wilson,lyv and jerline. Good time and good food hahah I finally reunite with my toufus(luv) Phebe's treat to HaagenDazs and yeah home after.

I have LOTS of crap to finish tmr,I feel like urgh. Bf is right,I need a diary thing so I can write 'em all down. PDA's a good choice but haha -looks at dad- Gonna leave the house at 11 tmr and be back by 10 at night. Good luck to me. I'm feeling so worn out alr. My dumb left shoulder is giving problems again. 

I dunno why,people just think that they don't play well like Ferd was talkin' to be about like he can't set well. Like some people maybe just think too highly of themselves. I ain't talkin' about anyone but just so you know human are sluts. 

I want Yoguru yoghurt!!!!!! I need to go all the way to Kallang just to have one. Gr.

GOODNIGHT JS LOVE :D
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

P.S Eug is suppose to call me like at 2. Stupid dog ass Weijie. Burn.
P.S(x2) I'M BAOBEI(PAU LAH)

I DISLIKE. URGH.
I FEEL SO UNBALANCED STILL AFTER SO MANY MONTHS
I WISH I COULD TELL MYSELF I AIN'T PETTY WITHOUT FEELIN' GUILTY
BUT I DOUBT I CAN SO I SHOULD JUST SHUT UP AND ADMIT THAT I'M SMALL-MINDED

THE ART FEST THING HAS PISSED ME OFF. IT'S AS IRRITATING AS FUCK AND IT'S NOT AS IF IT'S SOME GREAT SHIT NOT LIKE SGP FAGGOTS CAN TRUELY APPRECIATE IT THEY'RE JUST BULLSHITTING AND GO GET A LIFE IDIOTS DO IT IN TOWN NOT PASIRRIS TOWN 'COS WE HAVE ALL TEH UNCLEAUNTIES HERE YO

I WOULD STILL LIKE TO THINK THAT M(S) ARE THE WORST IDIOTS LIKE YOU CAN CALL THEM A DOLT LIKE THOSE WHO POSED PICS OUTSIDE COFFEECLUB WHEN THEY'VE GOT THE FLYFLYTHING ATTACKING THEM. EW. OKAY THEY'LL JUST SAY I DON'T KNOW ART K FINE. 

BYE. I FEEL SO. URGH. MY DAY'S CRUSHED.

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What an addictive game Lexitron is. Played it before training,after training and it stayed on my mind for quite sometime. I hate short training. It's the time to train like mad dogs but our coach ain't feelin' like it. Well what are we gonna do with 9 pathetic girls..

Many people say things but they themselves don't do it. I don't know why human are like that. Thank god,we should -mark the scarsm. Some fucking cunts can behave like the mostmostmost(x100) dunce idiots and not realising themself acting like one and I don't know what sgp guys think. Sickening faggots. URGH.

Piano tmr,drag myself there again. I really hate going over,see my teacher(cunt no.2) but I like seeing the piano :D!
Breakfast with dad(I'd rather be with my boyfriend,no,dad has less time with me) and I don't know. I wanna go watch under19 matches. 

No matter what happens,
Even if the gates of hell open
And we're left stranded out in the ocean
I'll love you even with my feelings unspoken
Even as the whole world is left broken
Ands its foundations torn asunder
Our love will rise with the thunder

Bf did this. Hahah,awesome. Like yeah man,our love will rise with the thunder.
I don't even remember posting it anywhere 2 years ago. Hahah. I sorta am jealous that bf knows how to do this and my English suck big time pls. Okay ain't suprising. No wonder LeeChaiNoi always ask me improve. Gr okay admit the fact Carolyn.

Okay nightz people. I still dislike the number 4,can't seem to find love in that number. Tsk.

I gave the name of Shen's group to all the followers of Coach. Hahaha. K not funny. It sudden popped out when we
were choosing jersey for our new combine team -NanAnn(NgeeAnn+Nanyang) 'Coswe didn't know what to print. So I'm like Shen's group and I reckon all the schools under Coach should do that. Hahha,maybe not. It's ugly like f.  Uncle Steven Kang will sponsor us if we want to play for under19 next year! Hahah. We gotta love him. No wait,his jerseys I mean! But yeah. Jurong Alumni won. I so wanted to play please,tsk. #3 from Jurong is my idol I tell you,ever first female idol okay. Wahlau,LOVE MAN. 

1.I've yet to email UncleSteven containing all the jersey sizes and all.
2.A backguard will cost about $70 bucks?! (Sian 1/2) 
3.For a moment back there I thought Ferd was gonna spon us with the kneepads,he told us to steal from the store at the back of the hall. 
4.I haven't had breakfast yet.
5.I need shopping. Mum's not auto enough.
6.I'm getting my Prada which means I've to change it with my new LV :(
7.I'm looking forward to my juniors matches :) Go juniors!
8.I'm looking forward to the day when my baby's coming over :D
9.CottonOn is always a better choice? I shall prove to myself when I get one from parkway. 

HI BF I LOVE YOU! ;D
HI EUG&ZB I LOVE YOU!
Both idiots are such idiots esp eug canz. Always irritating.

I mend shit that are broken and only if it means something to me. Everyone in this goddamn world assume and make everything impossible. So,I,obviously know even I use my big ass to think. (I said this might be a misunderstanding,duh.) I don't clear shit up unless it's something like what Eileen did. You and me never had a quarrel for long,so what the fuck is this. We ain't that petty to each other but some small little things does matter. 
I know I seldom say this,but after everything I still love you. (Might not really matter) but yeah. How much my team mates mean to me. 

For your infomation,people who were at training,most of them suddenly became like Lyvia.
This is what happen when we talk to Lyv and we get irritated:

Joan: -(Joan says something)-
Lyv in court: Sorry?
Me and Joan: ARGHHHH!!!!!! 
(with Xe laughing at the side)

...Last night was Mq's turn. Mr Tham made us laugh so hard and I had stomach cramp halfway.

Last:
Let it go and come back in your heart.
(^probably what I always do)